so long 2009

was a long and dark December


Desember berakhir dengan manis

terima kasih ya Tuhan
ini benar-benar hadiah tahun baru terindah :)

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that's why I'm feeling
no clue
empty
feeling wasted
abandoned

many times I wanna get rid of it
but many times too.............. I can't

where are those warming words that you gave to me?
where are those love?

now and here
I just feeling nothing
nothing in return
nothing left after a year?
is that all?

your silence are f*cking annoying
your ignorance are killing me

you make it real

there's so much craziness surrounding me
there's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
you make it real for me
well im not sure of my priorities
ive lost site of where im ment to be
and like holy water washing over me

you make it real for me
and IIIIIIIII'm running to you baby
youuu are the only one who save me
that's whyyy ive been missing you lately
cause you make it real for me

when my head is strong but my heart is weak
im full of hurricanes and uncertainty
but I can find the words
you teach my heart to speak

you make it real for meee yeaaa
and iiiiiiiiii'm running to you baby
you are the only one who save me
that's whyyy ive been missing you lately
cause you make it real for me

everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
you got to be the only one
who knows just who I am
and you shine in the distance
I hope I can make it through
cause the only place
that I want to be
is right back home with you

I guess theres so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
somewhere I can learn

You make it real for me
And iiiii'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who save me
That's why ive been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
you make it real for me

morning talk 30/07/09

jarum jam baru menunjukkan angka 7.50 pagi

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astaga
tugas ini benar benar memeras tenaga

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menyenangkan
tapi beban juga


hah ya sudah
semangat ya!

fix you fix me :(

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I feel so tired.And too in love